
“Siguro nga, may sumuway na sa ‘kin nung umpisa pa lang nung relasyon namin ni Oliver kung meron akong ate or kuya. I may be complete with all the things that I want, but not the things that I need. A family. When that painful miscarriage happened, my world stopped for a while kasi I wanted my baby so much. Kahit nabuo siya sa maling paraan, I never considered abortion. Kahit masasaktan ko ang sarili kong ina, sinige ko pa rin. Tinuloy ko pa rin.”Juday admitted that she really had feelings for Oliver, even if their love was forbidden and controversial. She said that both of them loved each other so much.
“Mali man kami ni Oliver, we made our baby with love, kasi nung ginawa namin ‘yun, mahal namin ang isa’t-isa. Minahal ko si Oliver dahil kahit mali, pinilit kong maging tama. I was blinded by love.”She was at a loss for words after losing their baby. Despite the heartbreaking loss, a dream suddenly appeared while Juday was sleeping. She elaborated
“May nakita akong baby sa panaginip ko. Nasa walker siya, smiling at me. Showing her two dimples katulad ng kay Oliver. Naiiyak ako, but.. giggling siya na parang ang saya saya niya. Hindi ko siya malapitan kahit gustong gusto ko. Nakatingin lang siya sa ‘kin, tumatawa. Hanggang sa nagising ako, umiyak na naman ako. Then lumipas ang ilang minuto, it hit me. Realizations. Madami. Eto ako, ready to give up, gusto nang tapusin ang buhay. Pero yung baby na yun sa panaginip ko, all smile lang siya. Naisip ko bigla siguro siya yung baby angel ko. It’s like my baby is telling me na ‘Mommy okay lang na nawala ako, at least you can start over again. At yung smile niya na yun, yun yung nagpa-realize sa ‘kin na dapat akong mabuhay muli to rebuild my life again.”Juday eventually learned a lot of lessons after what happened. A chance to rebuild her life was given after knowing that she was offered to work abroad and start all over again.

Near the end, Juday concluded that
“I told him karma is a bitch. I lost our baby kasi nagkamali ako. Mali yung naging tayo. And now you’re about to lose me kasi mali yung minahal mo ‘ko. Kasi may niloloko tayo. Kasi may sinasaktan tayo.”
Source: The Insights